I never dreamed I would be the mother that desperately needed patience, a less hectic schedule, a quiet spirit or compassionate heart. I never thought I would become the mother I never wanted to be. But I did.
My days are always over planned and overflowing though I keep reminding myself of the need for quality time with my husband and little blessings.
Instead of holding my blessings tight when they’ve been hurt, I put an ice pack in place, give pain medication if needed and move on to the next thing that “requires” my attention.
When voices begin to raise I tend to make mine louder rather than keeping a cool head and patiently guiding my children through their disagreement.
The Mother I Never Wanted to Be is Me
How did I become the mother I never wanted to be?
By saying yes to others way too much and no too often to my little blessings that deserve my best.
By not keeping my priorities straight and being more concerned with completing my to do lists than with the hearts of my little blessings.
By trying to live each day on my own without clinging to the Lord who longs to give me all the strength that I need.
Thankfully my motherhood journey isn’t complete, I’m so blessed that God is still working on me. Yet, I must be willing to step up and out in order to become more like the mother I dreamed I would be.
My little blessings are depending on my willingness to change, they need to see me take the hard steps to become a better mother – the mother God desires for me to be! By them seeing me make the choice and take the steps to change they will learn more than if I just told them the importance of being willing to change.
I know that I will never be a perfect mom, nor would I ever want to be! Can you image being the child and trying to live up to that? Yet, I want to ensure that I am growing and becoming a better mom, I don’t want to become stagnant and just accept that this is the best that I can do. I want to do my best by taking steps to grow and let God do the rest!
A parent’s actions always speak louder than words. What are your actions speaking to your children?